A mere six months ago, I hit
rock bottom in my loneliness “Publish” on my first blog post. I ran out to the back porch in the dark with my laptop, and read it out loud to my mom– watching her face carefully for a flicker of a smile or laugh. Special thanks to her for being my only reader for the first month and a half.
Funnily enough, six months ago doesn’t seem that far off at all, and now suddenly here we are. I’ve tried a lot, failed at a few things, and am still struggling to find my “niche” but I’m happy to report that I am still here, and I plan to stay here.
And here is what I have learned:
1. You never know what will be popular.
Don’t bother having expectations because you’ll probably be disappointed. There have been posts I thought would be super cool that have fallen completely flat, and things I spent 10 minutes on get more comments and views than I could have imagined. You never know what people will care about.
2. Blogging is super social.
I thought blogging was just you, alone in your own little URL in cyberspace. And then I stumbled upon blogging Twitter accounts, and then Instagrams, and then on Facebook groups. Now, suddenly, I’m in a Facebook group with other bloggers, and am talking back and forth on Twitter with total strangers who also happen to also enjoy typing out their opinions to share with the internet. It’s not nearly as solitary as I originally thought.
And, as an added bonus: It’s socializing from home. PANTS OPTIONAL SOCIAL INTERACTION.
3. It’s harder than you think.
See: Blogmas Fail. Posts take time to plan, to write, to edit, to photograph for, to edit the photographs for, to plan, to promote, and to talk about. With blogging remember this: If you like it, put a ring on it. It’s a commitment, baby.
4. It takes longer than you think.
I defer back to #3.
5. You will become crazy inspired by everything around you, and begin self-improving.
See a pretty building? Wow, that’d be a cute blog post… somehow. I just made a funny joke about naked old ladies in the locker room at the gym– can I turn this into a blog post? I did a really good job painting my nails– should I blog this? I went to Sephora today and swatched a new eye shadow color… THE BEAUTY BLOGGERS SHOULD PROBABLY KNOW ABOUT IT.
I am also more inspired to dress better, do my make-up better, and live healthier. For some reason, I have started caring more about making my bed in the morning (Thank you, Apartment Therapy), and wearing lipstick. These are the things I want to read about, therefore I want to be in the conversation as well. And I must experience it in order to have something to say back. Somehow, blogging has improved my life without even trying.
Especially my skin. Holy crap, has my skin gotten better. Thank you, beauty bloggers!
6. It’s scary as crap, but exhilarating.
It took almost a full month before I was able to post the link to my blog on any of my social media. What if they thought I was stupid? Or that my blog is stupid? Or my opinions are wrong? I wanted so badly to retain my anonymity on this online forum, but also speak candidly about my life, thoughts, and experiences. I mean, I know I’m a genius, but what if they don’t know?
Now that I’ve crossed that terrifying hump of posting it online (even on Facebook– where all my friends and frenemies can see it and make fun of it), it feels strangely liberating. My goal for a long time has been to stop being so self conscious, and this was an amazing step in that direction. It’s amazing what putting your life story online will do for your confidence. The phrase “F*ck it” has become a staple in my vocabulary, and I love it.
So. Happy six months, little blog. And cheers to [at least] six more!